“do you ever hate someone that much…”
— that even their name angers the fuck out of you and you just want to punch a wall, and like even if its on about someone else with the same you, you instantly think of them?
its wierd because i ahouldnt really let what they dod get to me so much, but FUCK ME, if you have ever had depression, you know what i mean when i say that everything goes kind of dark and even happy things dont make you happy anymore and you dont want to see anyone, to do anything, yeh well thats basically what it feels like when i think of that person. it feels like my hearts being riped out of my chest and my stomach feels like its been on the waltzers about 7 times in a row and i literally just want to hibernate for months, yet i still think of her and the things she did that i know perposefully will upset me and make me pretty much ill.
why do i even do thos to myself?
fuck life. fuck everything.